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[11 Nov 2009|01:59pm] Let the life burn away with the tragedies just like the cigarette i watched burn today in the street just follow me, is what she dreams as we walk away and try to keep our distance from the game she leads to play even these trees will deceive me as i sit and think of why this is happening to me even nature bites u in the ass when u have nowhere to go now that youve been locked out of your own house. try to hide just to be found and climb a roof to just jump down, slice the throat but u really hope it left just a bruise, cut down the tree just to stop urself from hanging around from the nuse the only thing that u think to create with that big blue string hanging on the chair u tried to use as a stair but u didnt want to break anything this time around dont want to ruin things in this town...but wouldnt it be a nice gift if the body was found with a smile. so u walk around looking for and answer on the ground but u know the only answers that are found aren't anywhere near here. So tell me dear why did u do it? why do u do this? why dont u just come back down the stairs and get us through this once again i thought i was lost outside just trying to find a new friend but i was too afraid of the monsters in the dark and the spiders in the walls after all that time we spent racing the son home turn out the lights and close the blinds love and sleep this life away with me. We can ignore our fears and dry each others tears, and scream as loud as we want at each other. The end is never gonna come cus we are just too young and end doesnt exist just like fear and the monster we thought was in our closets as kids. post comment

[11 Nov 2009|10:43am] tread on me as i feed off u u were meant for me but i wasnt meant for u Deciples of each other steering off of stress always 3inches over our heads. Which one of us is better off dead? I tried to hide behind the lies of following my words of my first mistake, like a book of my life i just premade now its too late, i cant rip up the pages i left in ur brain. I tried to lie to get to u to find out the truth that i already knew. WHy i do these things that i do? i have no clue. Ive done it before to the ones that i love. I might do it again if i dont try to understand what makes no sence in my head. SOmthing i can create but can prevent? Somthing i wanted to stop as soon as i started this mess. I kept flowing down the path of lies as the words were just flying out of my mind knowing that i was wrong but at the same time feeling like i was holding that in too long. so here i lay and lie to myself and say goodbye to the best thing ive got. I cant stop my pain and my heart as it continues to rot. Cryin, dying,rhyming all these stupid words in hopes to finding what i lost. I pushed away what i wish was hear everyday like throwing a beautiful ring in the oceans deep end and jumpin in after it....except its my best friend and i forget how to swim. I just tried to throw u away and you were my life jacket. I dont understand what i just did or got myself into but i feel like a masochist and a couple of my screws went lose. Maybe Its deep seeded or maybe im just fucked up. Maybe i need to just shut up and send this to u. post comment

[06 Nov 2009|12:21pm] my lightbulb is electronic and i turned it on and i turned it off but no1 gave it any attention. Just like the music scene. burnnnnnnn like a lightbulb post comment

[06 Nov 2009|10:01am] every step of the way is a dirty lie : our whole existence and tormented minds : all lies. we lie to ourselves everyday : saying everything is ok every step of the way every breath that we take is infecting as a plague post comment

and she hit a nerve like a gold mine [26 Oct 2009|01:42pm] can anyone really define death? Or gone? or GOd? Or themselves for that matter? Why are we all sad and numbing ourselvse and showering in things that arent natural? We should just love, live, let love, let live and let die. Let cry, move on and lift up our disguise. We can compramise to difine to true lives where we are meant to spread each others wings and fly. Even though we fly to fall....isnt life wonderful? Define your pain. Define your fear. Define what you think is right and wrong. Words were made and wrote in books passed on through genration, now look. were all lost in lies, with our mommys lullabys our only wind chime, except we cant feel the wind blow any longer because our lives are just getting somber.locked in a cage so full of rage. i miss every person iver ever loved. Here or not i know one day they will be gone. Hello precious where did u go? DOnt be afraid if i ask u that when i first meet u. Anomaly is what we all are. Over-ruled? How about now how about never? how about existance doesnt exist except in fear and false statement and forever ending truth. Just free and fall and just you and me. how bout we just be. how about we just be. post comment

[09 Sep 2008|07:29pm] a warning, a glare, infected the stare the hatred the kind of the beaten and blind helpless and cold melted and spilled a spiritual lie the law of the plague well be here again waiting for fait twisting our arms to enter the dark away from the light in which hurts our eyes made a fool to protect the projected tool a winner of wine a sinner of time ill save her from the layers of ancestral crime running away well steel this day 9-30 12 am project get away is manifested already post comment

[24 Jun 2008|05:40pm] put myself aside for the loves our our lives in the end when its time to talk amongst ourselves we start to cry and i wish we would all just die as we get ahead we realize were already dead post comment

haha [29 May 2008|04:05am] walkin through my dark room & something white got in my visions way and i said,"ExcUse me Mr.E!" "haha mystery" Then i stumbled into my bed, then got up to re-share it with myself on live journal. ZZZzzzzzzzZz i need to make Ziggles n my zaggles and recharge my body post comment

our inner god... [26 May 2008|01:09am] [ mood | optimistic ] I dont know why this guy looks so angy...maybe he spent his whole life being delusional? Hasnt found his own inner god? hahaha I am a god, & now im going to sleep. I get excited about my subconcious! Here i come! haha <3 post comment

[26 May 2008|01:08am] you are the one, the omni monster inside the cryptic zoo were praying that your mysterious ambitions choke you. you are the one that we look down on, as we dance on these petastools shaking the grounds under us what surrounds making you fall down like a foool post comment

theyre hereeeeeeee [23 May 2008|12:43am] UFOs and Rainboes! post comment

[23 May 2008|12:17am] also...you cant give somthign that is unaccepted post comment

her illness [15 Apr 2008|11:00pm] chin up deep breath lady youll be fine acceptance is your finest wine lifes a war dont fight just be prepared for 2mro to be worse post comment

I dont have any problems, problems have me... [15 Apr 2008|10:51pm] how much can i possibly pour of myself into everyone without sum1 misunderstanding?! it jsut seems like im trying to put full effort into everyone in my life and im so dry of it so my efforts as a personal relationship to every1 turns into nothing i spread myself too thin How am i supposed to know whats important and whats not? post comment

oops [11 Apr 2008|11:48pm] i ran over a snake today it was slivering in the middle of sum serious traffic i tried to doge it but :squish: :( i feel horrible about it...it was big and black eeeek post comment

couldnt sleep lastnight [10 Apr 2008|11:51pm] I kept waking up to write down weird random things in the dark.... Lango writting with someone is like teaching...your exchaning languages Invet space for Invet space for time Invet space for time Invet space for time Invet space for time Invet space for time Invet space for time Invet space for time Invet space for time Invet space for time Invet space for time Invet space for time Invet space for time Invet space for time Invet space for time a lyrical concept is a mirical theory ran by devision and concious descisions, held up by hypocrisy and democrisy SO i will rape your mind with mine now Discovery is: Making somthing exist. Existing is: making a discovery or being discovered Help the less fortuante writting in the dark points still in the middle there are men in these woman and men inside the wombs reach into a perfect circle and pool out a tool the living,dieing,unseen, beheld by the eyes of the screaming truth -Starving daughter post comment

[08 Apr 2008|07:12pm] I do what i want cause i can! Get over it bitch! Im not u and i never will be. Eat your fucking heart out with your condescending bullshit! post comment

[29 Mar 2008|04:05pm] I try to simplify things but this is beyond your experience. SO take your grain of sand off my beach, adore it, wonder where it came from and stop yourself from being so self serving. Learn to listen not just hear. & know that the people you are intrigued by are usually testing you 24/7 post comment

[27 Mar 2008|07:52pm] Being a condescending slef serving bitch doesnt motivate the daughter that will aways be better than u...so do the least u can do and provide her with shelter and keep your fucking mouth shut post comment

ugh [19 Mar 2008|10:03pm] WHy cant i find a fucking job? Why am i looked down on for being in bed all day because i cant get a job, dont have gas to go anywhere, i seriously suck at living life the way people want me to. Dieing woud be awesome for me. Maybe then everyone would regret telling me how things are supposed to be... post comment

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